The finish line

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Today was my final radiation treatment. The Ironwoman Cancer Triathlon is over, and I’ve won.

I am no longer a “cancer patient.” As of now, I am officially a “cancer survivor,” a badge which I will wear proudly for the rest of my life.

Over the past eight months since this Triathlon began, so many people have commented on my attitude and asked me how I could be so positive and upbeat while facing this fight. The answer is simple.

Rage. And determination.

When I found out I had cancer, I wasn’t devastated. I was PISSED.

Not pissed at life, or fate, or medicine or the universe. I was pissed at CANCER.

Behind that smile, that upbeat attitude was an all-consuming obsession: Beat Cancer.

Cancer became my enemy, and I was determined to use every available weapon to eradicate it. No mercy. Failure was not an option.

And whenever I would hit a low point, either in recovery from the hysterectomy, during chemo and radiation, under “house arrest” due to a low white cell count, or in the bus station of a transfusion room getting platelets and red cells to restore my energy, I would remind myself of my goal: Beat Cancer.

Even when I had doubts, when I wondered whether the chemo would actually work, I was determined that cancer would not win.

I decided that if the time would come that the oncologists determined that these treatments were ineffective, I would devote my final months, weeks and days traveling and enjoying life for as long as I was alive.

Cancer would not defeat me.

Earlier this year, I saw a meme on Facebook about being strong enough to withstand the storm. (It’s called “I am the Storm.”) It really resonated with me, and I came up with my own version that I would recite to myself on the bad days. It became my mantra, my prayer and my vow.

And thanks to my quilting buddy Michele — a very talented graphic designer — that mantra is now my very own meme, which I will use to celebrate this milestone and all the milestones to come.

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My name is Susan and I am a cancer survivor.

 

5 comments

  1. Michael Rink's avatar
    Michael Rink · · Reply

    Congratulations you Cancer Survivor!!!!! I am so happy for you! You have worked so hard and now have won. This is a Great Day for everyone who knows you and loves you!! Wooo-Hoooo!!! 😀

  2. N PM's avatar

    Reading this made me cry. In joy for you. And in admiration for you. Congratulations, my friend.

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  3. Susan Rink's avatar

    Thank you, Mike and Nancy. It has been a long road, and would have been a MUCH more difficult journey without the unflagging support of my family and friends.

  4. Sue's avatar

    🎉💪🏼🖕🏼💃🏼🤩🎊🥂🎉
    LOVE THE MEME!! My mom embroidered a blanket for Joel when he was fighting…”Phuck Cancer” (my mom, had a hard time with the f word sometimes!)
    Congratulations, my friend! Thank you for sharing your journey! 💖

  5. Susan Rink's avatar

    Thanks, Mizz Halsey! I am so blessed to have so many supporting and encouraging me along the way. Love to all my Texas peeps.

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